MY INTRODUCTION

Hi my name is Rhonda and I am 46. This is my story, a story of healing and living with DID/MPD. The reason for writing this, is hopefully it will reach many. Some who my be living with DID/MPD and for those who maybe wondering if things do get better. I am here to say YES and if this helps one person, if it gives one person hope it has been well worth it and maybe it will help some understand. To be completely honest, it is a lil scary opening myself up and letting you know who Rhonda is.  I first was going to write a book.  But then thought, I am not in this for the money and I thought, there will be those who cannot afford to go out and buy a book.  So, I am trying to make this easily accessible to everyone. There are misconceptions and some who do not believe that this diagnosis exists DID/MPD. I am here to say YES it does. I live with it everyday. To say it does not exist, is to say I do not exist. I had a very hard time accepting this, which I will be writing about later on.  But, I now know that this has kept me alive and honestly I am glad for this, because I would not be here!

For those that do not know what DID/MPD is, I will explain now.

First the Wikipedia:
Dissociative identity disorder DID)/Multiple personality disorder (MPD) is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a condition in which a person displays multiple distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment.  The diagnosis requires that at least two personalities routinely take control of the individuals behavior with an associated memory loss that goes beyond normal forgetfulness; in addition, symptoms cannot be the temporary effects of drug use or a general medical condition.

My explanation:
There is a spectrum of dissociation.  I am sure we have all experienced this. You are driving and before you know it you have passed your street without even realizing it. You have dissociated at some level. Well, for people like myself, the dissociation is more severe, you totally detach to the point where a whole personality has taken over, it is like another person takes over. I will be explaining this more during my blog.  It is also known that people with DID/MPD, there was severe abuse and it is being understood that the abuse starts at a very young age (under 3) and not always but in most cases the abuse is ongoing. This does make sense.  This is when the brain is developing, so what happens is at that young age, the mind cannot take the abuse.  So, the mind breaks off and a personality or personalities are formed to take the abuse.  People can have from 2 to 200 or more personalities, each one having there own roles. The mind is a very creative thing and has a great survival trait.

In this blog, I will be talking about my experiences in accepting, therapy, medicine and how I healed. I will not be get into my trauma to much. For this could trigger some who maybe reading my story.  My life is NOT about the trauma but about HEALING it is about how I SURVIVED and how I worked through things and learned who Rhonda is and became HAPPY and yes HEALTHY!!!. 

For those who have know me and have known me through this, I thank you for your support and your help in my journey in healing. I appreciate and luv you all :) I could not of done this without you!

I welcome comments and questions. If your comment/question is on a more personal level feel free to email me at nakedfootkasper@gmail.com

If you or you know someone who is struggling please feel free to share this.

This is my healing story!